Simply Having a Wonderfull Christmas Time (And other such like cheesy songs)

Rocking around the Christmas tree.....

Can't really do that in my house. My tree is so disproportionated to my front room that you have to loose a couple of stone to actually enter the room. But it dose give that festive feel, witch im not being funny but people could really deal with. What happened to everyone being happy at Christmas. I don't blame growing up,, i blame everyone getting moody. Fk the credit crunch, believe it or not its not about the prezzies or the food. Its about watching your nan fall asleep whilst dancing to Elton John.

Im not kidding about this moody thing. Why is the only person i see smiling on a day to day basis, is my English teacher. Who to be fare is from Canada and too young too have realized the evils of teaching. Wa-wa-wa its crap weather. Bo-ho. Unless you were born 4 seconds ago you should realise the weathers always been rubbish. Get over it M'kay?

Tonight is going to be horrible. Because although i am starting to slowly enter the adult world of college, buying knifes and driving. I still get rather excited about Christmas. Because im cool :) So tonight and the best part of tomorrow morning there is no way im going to be sleeping. It just wont happen. I'll be at my window, with a sniper trying to get that Santa kid for not getting me a pony yet.

Happy Christmas To EVERYONE. Except those who dont celebrate it. Then happy friday, for tomorrow of course xD..

I had this dream that there was going to be a heatwave on Christmas day. Witch, taking to account our strange climate, could be feasible in a few years time xD

Obviously im loving Christmas At the moment.

And hating, Wait who can hate at Christmas.

xxx

Deepest Appologise. (cause that made sense )

I am so very very sorry for not telling you anything lately. Keeping my strangeled and darranged thoughts form you. im so cruel to you.Its not fair really it isnt,, im sure most of you have left the shores of listeningtoclouds. and gone in search of something new, and more oftenly updated.

But alass my dear people. December has been a hard month for me. The struggle of gcse preporation and having to wear alot more layers from witch i am acustom. There is no end to the sorrow i feel for having left you for so long. All i can do is appolosise. And promis that tonight there will be a new blog, a blog of magnitute and epic proportion (possible, it could also be crap). And hopefully the loyal among you will forgive my crime. Good by for now my love.('s).....


Hughs and and kisses and christmas cheer alround.

To My Dearest and Most Hated....

Something i have realized lately, i dunno what it is i guess im just becoming hardened through the years but this is something ive noticed about friends.

This is probably very different in the real world but have you noticed your more likely to put up with crazy shit from your school friends than the friends out side of school. That's because for 5 days of the week you are forced to be in a rather enclosed space with people. 5 days of the same people all the time, and i have only started to realize this in year 11. But theres a hell of alot of people i actually dont like. ( Don't get me wrong, im pretty sure allot of people feel the same way about me... I Realize it, doesn't mean i care =] )

I mean everyone's okay in small doses.

The Idea That Caused the Theory;

It occurred to me recently that i don't have that many good friends. I mean i have friends yes, but those few people i really know and trust are few. I used too, i used to have quite a few people that i thought i could talk too about everything. But being stuck in the same damn building day after day has made me realize that some of my 'Good Friends' might just be the most irritating people on the planet. I don't really mind it thought, i don't really mind that when i start college (and trust me the eager anticipation is difficult to describe with justice) i wont stay in contact with allot of my friends. I really don't... yeah fair enough there cool people and I've had a brilliant time knowing them. But a select few, i can say without a doubt that not being around them would be a welcome break.

There will be 4 or 5 people that i will stay in contact for the rest of my life and when we are old and frail and hitting on the nurses in our retirement home, i will be truly glad that they have been part of my crazy ass life. But then there will be some that when they go off into the big wild world and never so much as utter a word to me again, i will honesty not care because to be frank. I wont miss the dramatics.

Life goes by so quickly, who really has time to be running after a friend again and again. Who can be bothered to handle the drama and bitchiness of the world, all the time. Lets face it there are millions of people out there. There are only 100 or so students in my year. It was life that brought this selection of people but that doesn't mean these are the greatest friends im ever going to have. So no, in year 11 i wont be putting up with dumb little spastics or angry little girls. I have one year left of manditory school, one year before im truely in control of my own life. And i'll be damned if im going to spend the easiest years of my life putting up with stroppy little girls that cant get there own way.

So if you see me, and im chilling out. On my own or with one or two friends, please remember this.... just because ive known you for a couple of years doesnt mean im going to spend my every waking minuet keeping you my friend, just because you can be bothered.

There are plenty more fish in the sea.

No blog title avalible.

im stuck for words. i don't know what it is but when im wandering around the town, enjoying the fruits of the world. I have so many ideas about the world. So many opinions that i want to share and discuss but when it comes to fingers and keyboard time, im lost, stuck, the words and ideas are just not there.

I blame parliament.

Im feeling rather repressed. Heres a little bio on me; im 16. Now all through growing up i thought it was about time i had a little bit of say in my life. And i guess i do. but theres always something those few things that makes it so ill never really be in total control of my life. For instance i have two flesh holes in one of my ears, and i decided to make one of them bigger. Good old daddy-o pulled that angry face like i had served some great injustice upon him, im sorry but what does it haave to do with him. Its my ear im defacing. I never understtod what peoples problems were with they way other people looked. I mean sure i make passing comments but the way people dress is there personal chose, right.

theres so many boundaries in this world. so meany things we're just told we can't do. because weree too younge, too old, not the right gender or not ready. How does anyone know. I havnt really seen the world but ive meet a few people that could bust down stereotypes quite quickly. 15 year old gir;s that act as mature as fully grown women. And fully grown women stomp there feet and kick bins over.

Anyway the repression strikes again so i must be off. I apologise Emma that this blog doesn't meet the standards of a few of my other ones but you put me on the spot here.

Used And Abused. (Music)

Im quite pleased with myself at the moment ( not that im not usually, this time just doesn't seem to stay in the same boundaries as usual). I Have recently received my first, that i know of, review. After tirelessly graffiti-ing the streets of Hastings and St.Leonards with my 'Mazing posters , someone has finally acknowledge that i have a blog beyond; ' oh you have a blog right?, Yeah its okay ' =/

So this below is my review..below, oh yes. i almost cried..i did, okay i didn't but it was close...

" I was checking Cindy's blog a few moments ago, and I was literally stunned into silence. Bravo Cindy, because the last two blogs in particular, were beautiful. I'm truly envious, because I can't write like that. I won't even be able to check over this without shuddering with embarrassment. The way your words flow together, it's fearless. I never thought I'd say this, but I admire you!

Check her out at; http://listentoclouds.blogspot.com/ "

Get in there aye? I thought that was well good xD. I'll Become a fan of her work and if its anygood ill link ya =).

The most surprising thing was when emma told me she had written about me on her blog i thought it would be

a little rant about how people that cant use grammar correctly shouldn't be allowed access to the internet, so

this was truly a surprise.

Urrrm, theise were letters to myself when i was feeling really down one time. No worries i dont think like that

right now. I just thought id show you the idea of seeing your situations from other peoples points of veiw.

Dear Miss Wheeler

It has recently come to our attention that you are not a normal person. We have discussed your situation with lots of other normal teenagers, and we all agree you reacted in the completely wrong way..

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU??? Your suppose to be broken and hurt ??? Why aren't you broken and hurt. Is it because you rationalize what happened to you. Well you shouldn't you should be kicking over chairs at the injustice that has been directed to you.

Why?

We don't get it. You are not Normal. If you where normal, we wouldn't be sending you this letter and you would be single

Yours Astonished,

The Association Of Teenagers.

Dear Cindy,

You Cant Trust him anymore

You are a screwed up person

Your Family Suck

Your Gradually Getting Crap At everything

Well-done.

Yours Aggressively,

Cold Hard Truth Association.

Cindy,

WHAT THE FUCK???

Yours,

Everyone that has ever cared about you

( we are all astounded )

Dearest Cindy,

You have been a very good member of our society through the years so it is important that we also send you a letter.

We are aware that last night there were a certain amount of songs that u shuddered to look at. We understand that these songs have emotional significance to you so we can put ourselves in your shoes. But it is simply not acceptable to shut off half of your musical favorites because they make you think about things you would rather not.

We do not want this to become a problem but feel if this persists any longer we will have no choice but to consider revising your membership.

Your life can not get in the way of bordering you musical horizons.

Deepest Wishes.

The Society of Music Addicts

Dear Cindy,

We are worried about you.

Your not eating, you refuse to talk pleasantly to your step mother and last night you drowned yourself in the impressive collection of vodka hidden in your 4th draw down.

This is not healthy, we understand that a event in your life probably was the cause of this but we do not want you to start letting this effect your life..

The pains in your stomach and heart aren't ones of physical effect, so treating them as if they were could have serious repercussions.

Please look after yourself, as the death of you means the death of us.

We need you to stay sain or everything could go down hill for you, and subsequently..for us.

Yours until the end,

Your various vital organs.

Cindy.

What's going on. You know what's happening is wrong..why don't you do something about it. ?

I thought I knew you. I've had to take your place so much its really draining.

obviously I'm more than happy to sort out your life while you curl up in a ball on the floor, but I was wondering if this is going to end soon?

please write back as my current conversations with you seems to be lacking energy.

Love Jasper.

x

If you know me personally you might know what im talking about in them. But it doesn't matter any more that

was agis ago. Happy thought; Im off to holiday tomorrow yeayyyy =D

Whilst you were sleping...

The moments before I fall asleep I hear sounds that aren't there. Its like my imagination bursts from my head before I get around to drifting off to sleep. I know im not asleep yet, everything seems real and im aware of things. But there's that eary feeling of mystic drowsiness.

To start with the sounds could be mistaken for real sounds, dogs barking and police sirens. But then I hear people talking. Conversations ive heard before, people saying my name. All mixed together with my own surreal thoughts.

I love that feeling, half dreaming, half awake. So I stay upas late as I can to induce that feeling. Even though I know ill payt for it in the morning. But its worth it to be pulled away form reeality by your dreams

Most people like to dream but I more than most. You experience feelings so much more freely and sometimes more intensely as your brain cant rationalize your thoughts.

I had a half sleep dream last night. I knew I was in my bed but out of the cornor of my eye I could see myself leaning over a cliiff. I lost my footing. And just like real life a shock of panic and horror stuned me. I woke out of my dream but quickly driffted back.

In your dreams your feelings arnt restricted by reality or rationality . So they are so much more pure. Even pure confusion made so much better by your dreams not obeying the rules of what you know to be real.

Sometimes I wish I could stay in my dreams. As even the horrific feelings are quickly replaced wth muddled confusion. To be in a place where you have no bonderys, no sinking feelings and no constant parinnoyed worries. Its Truly a wonderful trick of the mind.

B'ahh. <3

Well I'd like to first congratulate myself on understanding the universe but this has only become possible because of something I worked out yesterday. This finding has lead me to belive I now know everything.

This great epiphany was brought to me whilst looking at the lights on a crossing. I was using my key observational skills to study the men used for signal weither or not it is safe to cross the road. Following my investigation I notice that the first of the men. Urbanly refured to as the ' red man', named one would presume because he is entirely made of red squares. Is standing in an upright halted position, indicating not safe, and would appear to be wearing a hat. This is symbolized by the two squares position either side of his head.

My attention was then drawn to the similarly dubed ' green man' ( only breafly for health and safty reasons ) and I am instantly aware that the green man does not seem to have a hat. And also seems to be taking a large hurried stride in a certain direction

This lead me belive that prehaps the men are not in fact indicating that it is safe to walk. As popularly belive but it is in fact a signal to say ' it is now safe to go running after your hat '

And wa la I now understand the universe. xD

Id also like to congratulate The members of Trilby and Your Best Shot. Good gig, i hope you both have many more in the future. Check em out people's ><

Congratulations Melliot (not a real name btw :P) and Raven. *Giggles a bit*

(y)- Summer.H,Lucy.D, Gigs and UglyBoots.

(n)- Ladders =( (the tights kind), Pot Noddle Droughts,Losing Best Friends,

Practise Safe Eating, Use Condiments.

I don’t think you can actually say 'Strawberry boot lasses'. Have you ever had a strawberry?

They don’t taste anything like each other. That’s false advertising. I pay 39p to eat strawberry bootlaces to find there not strawberry at all there a mix of fruity plastic and flavored latex, I mean there lovely don’t get me wrong. An orgasm of flavors and bootlace'y goodness , but there not strawberry. What kind of a world is this when we are deceived by those who tend to our confectionary needs. The bootlace industry is the very foundation of our society, if that can no longer be trusted it is no wonder our country is in tatters. Its infuriating to think my beloved Tesco would go to such lengths to produce falsely branded confectionary and what's worse, they put a pink dinosaur on the from to distract from the obvious fatal error they have made. How dare they, as if the likes of the pink dinosaur would associate itself with such a hideous mistake in falsified packaging.

I am outraged.

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Yee, Im writing in english. No wait, no im not because that would be an infingment on the rules of the school. But i am so Ha.

Were kind of discussing books, i sense some people may lack the capasity tob acctualy discuss books without adding ' oh yeah i can read'. It quite hard to write a blog when music isnt playing and other people are having a good old chat. Blogs tend to become about whatever people are talking about.

I think it must be quite an impress thing to be able to write while everyone is talking and just ignore it all, but between theise thoughts i have sorted on one.

Its bassed on the 'Thought of the day' in my english class.
The quote is as follows

Its is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.

Uneducated mind, well dont we all know a few of them, people that when you try to tell something thats different to there own opinion and nto only do they refuse to listen to what you have to say they also feel it appropriate to insult you for having a different opinion of there own. Horrid people.

I feel my creative thought being kind of shrunken by other peoples thoughts. Dont you just hate the momment when your not thinknig about anything in particular and a completely awesome thought comes into your head, then someone talks and the thoughts gone. Millions of brilliant ideas are killed everyday by people getting in other peoples bubbles. Even when they dont intened to i think im going to use my english jornal to write down blog ideas. The only problem is that if i have matrerial to write i wont be bothered to write. Thus is the justice of the world.

I think this blog might be purly about blogging so far lets ask the class for potentail blog topics .. see what they come up with

-'Me' (elliot)
-Witch citris fruit is the best
-About what?
-Is gorden brown a woman
-Men wearing earliner
-Mash potato
-Is stweret little a fugitive
-Bradleys a mong
-Im lost
-Rasisum, a univerrsal langue
-For offical purposes, theise children to not egsist
-And it was written in blood


A few good ones , the rest are crap. The mind of youth aye ?:P

Im bored of this. Baii, ill write another one later on today.

Mandems, Girldems and Dogdems.

Well my dance club went quite well, but they wouldn't leave. They just wouldn't all go. Cindy show us this, Cindy show us that. It was flattering but i had to shoo them out of the building. I really really wanna get paid for it. That would be so epix. I think i did quite well for someone making it up on the spot.

Oh yarr, if you go grove, come to my dance club. Year 7 and 8s can go and anyone in other years that asks me. There are rewards like discos , and sweeties. and such.

Im well Looking forward to going to collage, but im not looking forward to certain things. For instance, i canny wait to stop taking English maths and such. Im well into getting into phycology and what not, seeing Momo round collage, and hopefully having a class with summer. What im not looking forward to is im pretty sure Lucys not going to the same place as me and aarons going Bexhill =(. One thing i don't like about the real world.

Why is bexhill not in the dictionary? Does it not exists. kfdslngldsk <- suggestions for that word include; double-decker, mudslinger and Bangladeshi. What the hell spelling correcteors are bare random ><. But lets be frank i need all the help i can get.

I am king spam-o-lot, i rule the world with an iron fist

and im impartial to politics.

My friend just sent that to me on msn. Weirdo. xD Im doing schizophrenia as my theme in dance GCSE, its good and everything but im researching it and its rather scary disorder. OCD yeah? is not a funny disorder but people have mild ocd or at least like everything to be where they put it or they go nuts , make me laugh.

For instance my friend Hannah ( Hii Hannah) is rather picky about where she puts her stuff so ill move it like a couple of millimetres and she notices every time. It annoys her to no end. Also people that straighten books on the table and then you mess them up on purpose and they flip. Mega lols.

I really realy want to go in icerink, the one underground near the peir. I do realise you can really get in there and your not aloud. but other people manage it. And you get some amazing pictures. I know exactly who id want to come with me, but were not talking at the moment. =?

Anyway i have a dog to walk. Asta.

Loving. Ugly Boots, Christian, Year 11, Pirate Memorabilia xD

Sweet 16, and a Week.

Right just befor i start im going to adress my current mood, because of very unfair actions that have befalled me. But instead of pooring my heart out and making this personal (witch im determened to happen as little as possible).. Im going to speak as Chav/Pikey/Gang*( that means ganagsstar btw) as possible....

Well i az this bare bredrrin. he's like my main mandem and ting and we iz tight , right bruv ? Well that what i tink. Then i find out he be chatting bare ruff chat bout this girldem, know what im saying? i be proper murked up bout it. Not being funny and what not, but fess up yeah? Dont be back bating on the online world , M'kay? Bloody WasteGash.

(sorry if i got any of that wrong, there's only so much you can learn form listening to twats)

Were was i ? ive recently started writing poems again. Coz im gay and coz my english teacher is from canada xD

Heres one i wrote a few days ago...

Standing in Tesco.. (by me, obviously)

Just stop, Take a look around.

Everyone's concentrating, paying no attention

To anything but there shopping lists

Mothers and their pampers

Children and there chewy sweets

Me.Wondering why im holding Tesco value raisins.

How Gay is that :P. They get so much worse though its unbelivable how gay i really am. Utter faggotry that be i :P

I has to make up a dance to teach little kids, and yes i know there 11 and im 16 but theres lots of them and they have big eyes and im frightened.

Well i have to go now, i have an intresting blog coming up about girls. prepare to be intreged,.

Tata for now.

x

Should have watched funny people...

Happy second of september, wel its not particularly but whatever :P

I watched 'The Final Destination' yesterday. And let me now say that one is not impressed. Firstly i succumed to peer pressure and spent half of my bank balance for me and my friend to get in. The final desination movies are based on a good concept but something about film 2-4 annoys me. In the first film the boy had to work out for himself that people were dying in the order that they shoud have died in. Also he had to work out that the people he saved because of his preminition where going to die anyway. In the following films they just typed preminitions in on google and wa-la they already know whats happening, whats going to happen and who its happened to previously. Well excuse me but isnt that kind of cheating. I realise that we already know the general plot line for theise films but theres no reason why the characters of that film should already know aswell. Also i wasn really all that impressed with the latest one. The deaths were all highly pradictable and didnt look the slightest bit realsitic. But thats just my cindy type review. Im not going to add a spoiler because in basic the film runs the same damn track that the rest of them do.

Anyway that annoyed me a bit. What other news do i has... Im a married spud again. Woo. Im also being kicked violently in the head by hannah who is still asleep ( and we didnt see that coming). I havnt quite decided how im going to tell my parentals that my beloved and wildly over priced ipod now looks like its been the victum of a 12 car pile-up. Im the one that payed for it but knowing theem they'll spring there disappointed face on me. with a added sprinkale of i told you so and just a hint of we're never letting you have your own pets.


My house is beginning to annoy me. One of the downsides to the summer holidays (despite being morbidly broke) is that im forced to be in close contact with my family for an extended period of time. And im not to happy with that i couldnt imagine being stuck with annyone for an overly long time. And this is why im not getting married xD. I seem to notice this in other familys ive come to visit, that when being forced to spend mulitble weeks in each others company people tend to get overly adjitated for nump reason (oh yeah i said nump). I dont think seeing your friends makes a difference its kind of nessasery to se people you dont like on a regular basis. It help to makes the moments with people you do like more pleasent.


Oh em gee just read over that, it makes sence but sounds a bit like bare waffle cakes. I know people that chat like that all the time. Dont yu just feel like going 'Blah blah blah blah stupid words'. No? just me. Im stressed i have a headache and hannahs not looking like shes getting up anytime soon. :@


Loving; Not much right now.!!

Eat The Damn Grass !!!!

That title was inspired by Kill Rock N Roll by system of the down.

I like that song, it remind me of my friend rob who is listening to it like everyday, he head bangs and stuff. Looking so very happy. Awwhhh bless.... Hope he's having fun in turkey.

I was doing my usual surfing of the internet being me having a very important life on online shopping when i came across an add that read like this ' WE ARE HELPING TO STOP THE CREDIT CRUNCH BY MAKING ALL OUR CLOTHES 70% OFF =D =D' Well it didnt have the equals d faces but there was a smiley lady on it. Excuse me i might be missing something but to stop the credit crunch... The crunch of credit. That big famous black hole that stealing all our money and making us feel crap. To stop this, to save us from this nation wide issue... We have to shop? For things we never needed in the first place. Oh yes of course how silly of me, the answer is so obvious. And the sales are on stuff like toaster waffles and glow in the dark sunglasses. Surely it would be more effective to have 70% off bread or petrol. Jesus christ.

Oh yes i need some opinions from some people, ive decided i want to get into some sort of religon. I want something to say when people ask me if i folllow anything other that hot emo cleaner boys that work at my school ><

Now my choices are as follows; spiritualist or buddhist. Now i chose theise becausee, well it was more because the rest of them had too meany issues around them. Christianity, i have no problem with, its the bible thats sexist and flawed. ( sorry christians too offened your holy book btw). Muslim, i dont agree with your religions veiws on the different roles between man and woman. Jewishness ( ??? ) Urm, id always thought being a jew was something your born into and theres alot of controversey around it and it didnt look that fun anyway. Hindu, blue elephant god ? Okie dokie. Again i dont mean to offened any religons here. Those are just my stupid english reasons.

I like spiritualisum and buddhisum both because neither of them recuire me to belive in any sort of god. ( Win >< ). And no spiritualisum does not mean ghost hunter and buddhisum does not require me too shave all my hair off and become a monk. Sorry.

The Cindytionary.

Chav: Mckenzie, jeans and stryped top. They say the word 'init' when not appropriate and are often found lurking in large groups. Some chavs are okay most are brain dead zombies.

Pikey: Burbery, shout at passsers say things like ' im gunna shank ya blad' even though they are blatently just spotty white twelve year olds wearing trousers that are far to big for them. Do not approach a pickey, they are dangerous WHAT IF THEY HAVE A BUTTER KNIFE !!!!!!!WHAT THEN ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Right now im loving; Dolphin (connor), Ryan&Hannah. Cover Versions ( i recomend punk goes.. collection), The sun( the gassballoffrire not the newspaper) and System of a down.

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...and a bottle of rum.

Guess what im watching?

Awhh man you suck at guessing. Why are you even alive you fail of a human being. Lul, im joking your cool you can stay. Anyway the right answer was harry potter and the philosopher's stone. Thats how uber cool and retro i am.

In complete honisty dont you think Daniel Radcliff fucking hates harry potter. Everytime he walks out of his front door of his million pound mansion of course), goes to the shops, even uses the lift. People go like " Omi God, its harry potter"... " Wow its the boy who lived"..." Hey dude, fought you know who lately". I bet ever now and then he goes a little bit mental like " GO AWAY YOU RETARDS IM NOT HARRY POTTER ITS A CHARACTER YOU JUMP'T UP LITTLE PICKEY"...

Haha, that would be so funny. Im not going to write a blog about harry potter i just thought it would be a good start. Was it? No? Shame. =(

I have a sticky 9 key. What a nazi.

Du know what annoys me? Well of course you dont i havnt told you yet. Its unspecific name calling. You get this mainly from chav's but everyone does it at some point. Calling random strangers or people you know very little about things like 'slag' and 'whore'. Surely you need to know a little bit of personal information befor you can call someone that. You have to be aware that they sleep around or have sex for money.

Me on the other hand if i find myself in a cross the road battle shouting words at random stangers i retort things with some truth to them. Such as shrimp and twat and chavling, also pickey, umpalumpa and genious in a sarcastic tone of course.

All of those can be found out from the simple act of seeing them and hearing them shout things at you. I only really recive comments when i argue back to things like ' my friend (small, ugly, not paying attention) thinks your fit'... or 'fucking emo'... maybe perhaps ' nuurhaapphhh blad' and my particular favourite 'got any crisps'.

In a state of normality, i went to hastings carnival yesterday. That was quite cool. Not the carnival... i didnt see that i was up the west hill drinking. =) But i did watch the fireworks they were pretty. Im getting new straighteners tomorow. Yeeee xD Loving At The Moment; Curly Hair, The Summer, Dolphin/Kingsly/Emily, New Friends, Alcohol and Customizing Clothes.

xx