In college now. Check me out.

I have a problem. Not a massive problem...not a problem that really registers as a problem. Just your normal mundane average little issue that pops up in everyday life. Don't get me wrong there are females out there that would regard this as the most pressing matter in there lives. But im not normal and we've all established that.

I like a guy, that likes someone else. He may or may not like me also. Who knows.

The point is that i have a problem, its a very normal and mundane problem. Yet one that can not easily be solved. To tell you the truth i encountered this problem with someone else. My Answer to the problem that time was not a morally positive one and i regret it.

So taking that road is not entirely viable.

I choose to voice this problem not to complain but in fact to gloat. Being in this position of 'stuck' is allowing me to focus on things that would seem more important. College, for example. I find myself in the best possible condition i can be. There can be no chasing, no ignoring other friends, and no forgetting my studies because i simply can't have what i want.

Its fabulous.

But im not going to lie, If he wanted me i wouldn't think like that atall.

Pinapple.

I need a piss.

Right ive done that now and had an ispired idea, 'Warm toilet paper'. Okay biznitches thats been copyrighted now so i'll know if you mass produced my idea fother muckers. It feels awesome when you leave the toilet role on the radiator and then have a bit of a wipe.Why has no one thought of this before? Has anyone thought of this before? I'll google it...

Nope. Kaa-tching. Theres warm toilet seats but that only solves the issue of your bum being cold, what about other areas. Noone ever thinks about the ladys.

im off to get zee fish and chip. xD

Cauuugght in a bad romance. (that just happened)

Ive noticed something. Its happened over a period of time but having a boyfriend has stopped the longing to have friends. Its not that i dont care about having friends its just that its not the end of the world if i dont.

Thats a really bad thing to say but my best friend in the whole world, is my boyfriend. I tell him all the crap that you'd tell your friends. Regardless of his lack of input into the conversations i will discuss shoes with him untill his ears bleed. Dont get me wrong, I'm pretty sure i do still have friends its just i dont have many close ones any more and all of the friends i still see regularly have also got boyfriends. My life has changed a bit these last 9 months. I mean now ive finished school i might not see my friends any more, im not the type that gets invited out for one reason or another. Usually i have something better to do and id rather do things with Christian but thats not the point. The point is that being but crazy in love with someone for 9 months ( and 4 days :D ) has changed how important other people are too me. I find that i stop trying so hard with other people because i'll always have him as my fall back.

Thats not really a good attitude to have, and im pretty sure he's starting to get the same thing too, im not sure how i feel about the whole thing. Im not sure if the effort to get people to like me is necessary any more. I'll have to ponder this one some more.

On a separate note, im loving Glee. Im becoming like hard core fan base kinda material. There GleeGa thing they had in episode 20 was pretty inspired. :) And there right as much as people can bash lady gaga and say shes a man. Shes a fucking lyric machine she churns them out like a factory. On top of her ridiculously long list of songs she also writes songs for other people. Thats crazy kinda good. I wonder why someone with tat much talent has been writing songs for so long and only now getting noticed. Saying that though she has a strange face. Im the bad romance video she looks like mega hott in some of the shots but then in Telephone she looks like a cyborg. A woman of many talents indeed... even the ability to change the entire shape of her face xD

Mayday xD

My back hurt somewhere. not all that sure why.

Its mayday today, and for those who dont live in the eastsussex area and therefor dont know why thats important, on may day (that being the first monday of may) its kinda like a massive street occasion where theres loadsa bikes (the moter kind) and people getting drunk and stonned.Theres morris dqncer,, cos no ones told them thats lame yet but ahh well.

I myself will probably stick to the latter of the two poisens.

Dont you hate it when your all cotched up in bed and you need a fucking piss. Not cool times.

Im kinda living on facebook at the moment. thats moderatly sad but i think ill role with it.

Im also pretty eager to move into my new room, my disney themed sleep over is full on happening now, just not sure when it is...i also cant decide on my guest list im allowed five including me but the fith one is hard to chose between friends who all have there bad points aswell as good

Anyway, should start getting ready for mayday

Asta La Byebye xD

As the time fly's by..

So i sit here waiting for my boyfriend to arrive and i start to reflect on the recent turn my life has taken and i cant help but smile.

It wasnt too long ago that i was wishing everything about my life was different but im so content now.

Im sorry too boast but aside the impending doom of final chance to pass my
GCSE's my life is pretty damn splendid. Its like how it used to be just me and my dad, oh and my boyfriend of 8 months. What a family it is.

Today i spent £110, its not my birthday ive only been saving for 3 weeks, thus is the wonder of being in employment. :) I also went on a voyage to TESCO (C) hehe, that was a nice shopping for food that i acctualy like was quite the experiance. :)

tata for now xx

when theres simply no place to go...

Its beautiful, the snow.

Its dangerous and its beautiful. But most beautiful things are.

I, and most other people that unfortunately also think like me. Are quite baffled by the reaction the English are giving to this weather. Sure, were not prepared for this weather. But lets get prepared. We are so consumed with our unimportant lives that we tend to forget other people might be struggling too. Please i implore you, shake off the horrible english habbit of being grouchy and mean. Cast aside your fears and help a stranger if you can. Reallt in times like theise we need each other and i think it is about time more people see that.

The worlds going a little bit strange, so really would it kill you to be a little nicer? (:

Happy Snowdays.

Psssttt, To all you GCSE'ers, the snow is amazing granted. But so is your future. Im not a fag, i just want to succeed in life.

Live at the nicky houshold.

Watching nothing to declare. With if you think about it is just a show that tells smugglers how not to get caught. Sillysilly heads.

I forgotten what i was going to write about. Ah yes the snow, its beautiful. Where i live theres 2 or 3 inches of it. I know thats not much compaired to some places, but still thats quite good for england. Also seeing as i live in the hottest part of it.

Snow makes me happy, even if it is cold, the snow is so beautiful. (:
How gay am i sounding lol.
Im also quite glad im not at school, i cant really deal with it at the moment. Snow days are a much happyer day. GCSE's are bugging me out seriously. Why wuld anyone want to do this kinda work. It should be illegal. That was the most rubbish moaning about work ever i appologise for my rubbish use of words today. I'll complain about life later when ive had a little revise of the dictionary.

I canny be bothered to blog anymore. ):
I'll do it later when ive been further deprest by my fam. lol