Ive noticed something. Its happened over a period of time but having a boyfriend has stopped the longing to have friends. Its not that i dont care about having friends its just that its not the end of the world if i dont.
Thats a really bad thing to say but my best friend in the whole world, is my boyfriend. I tell him all the crap that you'd tell your friends. Regardless of his lack of input into the conversations i will discuss shoes with him untill his ears bleed. Dont get me wrong, I'm pretty sure i do still have friends its just i dont have many close ones any more and all of the friends i still see regularly have also got boyfriends. My life has changed a bit these last 9 months. I mean now ive finished school i might not see my friends any more, im not the type that gets invited out for one reason or another. Usually i have something better to do and id rather do things with Christian but thats not the point. The point is that being but crazy in love with someone for 9 months ( and 4 days :D ) has changed how important other people are too me. I find that i stop trying so hard with other people because i'll always have him as my fall back.
Thats not really a good attitude to have, and im pretty sure he's starting to get the same thing too, im not sure how i feel about the whole thing. Im not sure if the effort to get people to like me is necessary any more. I'll have to ponder this one some more.
On a separate note, im loving Glee. Im becoming like hard core fan base kinda material. There GleeGa thing they had in episode 20 was pretty inspired. :) And there right as much as people can bash lady gaga and say shes a man. Shes a fucking lyric machine she churns them out like a factory. On top of her ridiculously long list of songs she also writes songs for other people. Thats crazy kinda good. I wonder why someone with tat much talent has been writing songs for so long and only now getting noticed. Saying that though she has a strange face. Im the bad romance video she looks like mega hott in some of the shots but then in Telephone she looks like a cyborg. A woman of many talents indeed... even the ability to change the entire shape of her face xD
